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yamachine801) wrote2012-02-12 04:04 pm
yamachine801) wrote2012-02-12 04:04 pm
Entry tags:
『Wait』
Title: Wait
Pairing: Yamada/Chinen
Author: Fukuda Kanon /![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
nodoka06
Genre: death, angst
Summary: Yamada has a car accident. Chinen knows about Yamada’s true feelings for him but it is already late. My summary sucks.
A/N: Actually a songfic, inspired by David Archuleta's Wait. *coughs*. I'm supposed to be watching some Jdoramas but due to my fail connection, I couldn't watch peacefully.
- Rushed and unbeta-ed, so this might be boring. XDD
I can't sleep I'm feeling wide awake
Tonight is taking it's time
How much more before the morning breaks
And I can leave it all behind
It’s already been a month since you’re gone but still, I cannot forget you. How could I? You are my first love, my first man, my everything; though we didn’t last long as you left me so early, not having enough good memories to be treasured, not having sweet memories to be remembered forever. We haven’t been completely a real couple. Why Ryosuke? Why did you leave me? I am not complete without you by my side, or even when you are not around. I want you to be here, but since it is impossible, I want you to take me wherever you are, since, it was really my fault. If only I didn’t act so childish and immature, maybe we wouldn’t had that fight. I won’t run away carelessly and you wouldn’t chase me. Then maybe, maybe … you wouldn’t be hit by that red car.
I’m sorry Ryosuke, I’m sorry.
Those scenes hit me so badly every day, every night. I couldn’t sleep as I remember how you got knocked on the street while the rain was pouring hard. How you smiled so weakly when I hugged you in my arms while you are full with blood and told me how happy you are that I stopped running in the rain and that I’m back in your side. Are you stupid huh? Are you?
'Cause every time I try to close my eyes
I only end up seeing memories of you
And it's never enough I'm waiting
“Y-Yuri … y-yokat-tta”. That’s what you said to me. You were grateful for what? Grateful for being hit and by being covered by own blood? Geez.
Everything that happened on that day is still clear in my memories. We were so happy in the morning as we decided to went fishing and went back home in the afternoon. We went to an amusement park after and took some rides. I felt so happy at it seems to me like we were dating. It was actually a date, right? Tell me, it was! Since it was the first time you asked me out, with only the two of us. Normally we would be enjoying the weekend with Dai-chan and Ryuu-tan, but at that day it was only you and me, so I was really overjoyed.
But the rain ruined our date. It ruined everything. Sure, we had enough spending our times in the amusement park, but for me, those were not still enough. I want more of your time; I want to spend the rest of my time and life with you forever.
“Oh, it’s raining Yuri, let’s go home.”
You took off your jacket and placed it around my shoulder, covering my head with your two hands. At that time, you were so closed to me that I felt something hot on my inside that made me blush. I held your hand and pulled you on a nearby waiting shed, there, I told you to wait for the rain to fade as I was so confident that it would end soon.
But the rain was so stubborn and didn’t stop pouring. I saw you shivering in cold. I knew you didn’t want your shaking to be obvious but I did notice it, so I gave you back your jacket but you’re ceasing me to do so. Instead, you put it back on my shoulders again. Then I pouted.
“Rain, rain, go away~” I chanted as you pulled me closer to you. I don’t know what’s with you that you were so sweet towards me. Were you drugs at that time? I clutched to the hem of your shirt before I hugged you completely. I knew you need some warmness at that time.
Few minutes passed and the rain kept on pouring. Our stomach both growled in hunger.
“I’m hungry~” I said as I made another pout. It didn’t mean anything; I just want to look cute in front of you. But I didn’t expect that you would lose hold of me after that.
“If we only left this place as I told you earlier, then we wouldn’t be stuck in this stinky shed.”
You’re tone was so stern that it appeared to me that you’re blaming me. You became sour towards me suddenly and I hate it.
“Huh?” I raised a brow as I looked up at you. “Are you blaming me?!”
“Who else is in here? Maybe I should blame the cat behind us.”
“Then I’m going! It’s just a rain; it cannot kill us by its raindrops!”
Then I started running as I heard you shouted ‘oi!’, you followed me instantly, chasing after me. You kept calling my name on the street and telling me to stop and that you couldn’t run any faster as I could, but I didn’t listen to you. Then, I heard a noisy honk and the screechy sound of a swerving wheel.
I looked back. My eyes widened when I see you on the ground, with your blood streaming.
Even though you're gone I can hear your heart
It's calling out my name like a flash in the dark
If this is just a dream
I won't give it back
I'll find a way to make it last
One more minute wait wait wait don't go
Just one more minute wait wait wait don't go
We dashed you to hospital. I never let go of your hand when we were in the ambulance. Tears kept flowing in my eyes as I felt guilty for what I’ve done. I should be the one lying there, I should be the one who’s suffering the pain. I should have stay calm and understand you at that time. I’m such a stupid brat.
Both of my hands were trembling while I hold yours. You laughed so weak with that.
“Why are you laughing??” I asked.
You didn’t answer but you tried to reach my face with your weak hand and wiped the tears on my cheeks. But even how many times you wipe them they would not stop on falling until I'm certain that you are okay.
“Y-Yuri …” You uttered. “D-do you … how p-pretty … y-you are …”
I bit my lip as I didn’t know what to response. I do not know if you are just making fun of me, but if you were, that was not the right time to joke, you know.
“Y-you’re … beautiful …”
You caressed my cheeks and smiled weakly again. So I nodded, “I know”, I answered. “Why are you saying this to me?”
I was still full of tears. I like what you were saying to me but it also fears me that something bad might happen next so you’re telling me things you never told me before.
You squished my hand tighter and kissed it softly, “because … b-because … I … I …
… I love you, Yuri…”
It shocked me. It surprised me to hear those words from you, because I love you too.
I love you too Ryosuke from the bottom of my heart.
But,
You are so unfair! You didn’t let me tell you my feelings! You didn’t let me to answer to your confession.
Your hold onto me had loosened and you slowly closed your eyes.
Wait! Don’t go, I still need to say how much I love you too…
I am keeping every word you say
But how much longer can I hold on
Cause whispers echoing until they fade
Remind me that you're already gone
“ I love you, Yuri”
Those words; it makes me happy to know that you feel the same way towards me. But, what’s the use of it now, now that you are gone. Say it to me again Ryosuke, please I want to hear it from you every day. Please come back. I need you.
'Cause every time I try to chase your voice
I end up getting lost and running in circles
And it's never enough I'm waiting
Whenever I close my eyes, your figure appears and at the same time I could hear those sweet words that you said. Where are you now? Are you sitting next to me? Are you hugging me when I’m down? I don’t care if I’ll see you as a ghost, I really don’t care. What I really want is to see you again. I want to apologize as many times as I could, I won’t stop saying sorry until we could go back at that time and re-do everything. I miss you so much Ryosuke, I miss you.
Even though you're gone I can hear your heart
It's calling out my name like a flash in the dark
If this is just a dream
I won't give it back
I'll find a way to make it last
One more minute wait wait wait don't go
Just one more minute wait wait wait don't go
Wait wait wait don't go
Just one more minute wait wait wait don't go
Oooh yeah don't go
If you heard that I love you too, would you not leave me at that time? I hate you for being impatience at that time! You didn’t give me a chance, even just a minute or even 3 seconds to tell you how I feel, how I feel for you for this long. I still don’t get your point of leaving me, because If you really love me, you would not give up on that so easily right?
Did you fear that I might reject you so you instantly closed your eyes? If so, I better not hear those words from you! I could wait for a lifetime, but now that you’re gone, what would I gonna do?
I’m sorry.
FAIL. FAIL. FAIL. FAIL
Pairing: Yamada/Chinen
Author: Fukuda Kanon /
nodoka06Genre: death, angst
Summary: Yamada has a car accident. Chinen knows about Yamada’s true feelings for him but it is already late. My summary sucks.
A/N: Actually a songfic, inspired by David Archuleta's Wait. *coughs*. I'm supposed to be watching some Jdoramas but due to my fail connection, I couldn't watch peacefully.
- Rushed and unbeta-ed, so this might be boring. XDD
I can't sleep I'm feeling wide awake
Tonight is taking it's time
How much more before the morning breaks
And I can leave it all behind
It’s already been a month since you’re gone but still, I cannot forget you. How could I? You are my first love, my first man, my everything; though we didn’t last long as you left me so early, not having enough good memories to be treasured, not having sweet memories to be remembered forever. We haven’t been completely a real couple. Why Ryosuke? Why did you leave me? I am not complete without you by my side, or even when you are not around. I want you to be here, but since it is impossible, I want you to take me wherever you are, since, it was really my fault. If only I didn’t act so childish and immature, maybe we wouldn’t had that fight. I won’t run away carelessly and you wouldn’t chase me. Then maybe, maybe … you wouldn’t be hit by that red car.
I’m sorry Ryosuke, I’m sorry.
Those scenes hit me so badly every day, every night. I couldn’t sleep as I remember how you got knocked on the street while the rain was pouring hard. How you smiled so weakly when I hugged you in my arms while you are full with blood and told me how happy you are that I stopped running in the rain and that I’m back in your side. Are you stupid huh? Are you?
'Cause every time I try to close my eyes
I only end up seeing memories of you
And it's never enough I'm waiting
“Y-Yuri … y-yokat-tta”. That’s what you said to me. You were grateful for what? Grateful for being hit and by being covered by own blood? Geez.
Everything that happened on that day is still clear in my memories. We were so happy in the morning as we decided to went fishing and went back home in the afternoon. We went to an amusement park after and took some rides. I felt so happy at it seems to me like we were dating. It was actually a date, right? Tell me, it was! Since it was the first time you asked me out, with only the two of us. Normally we would be enjoying the weekend with Dai-chan and Ryuu-tan, but at that day it was only you and me, so I was really overjoyed.
But the rain ruined our date. It ruined everything. Sure, we had enough spending our times in the amusement park, but for me, those were not still enough. I want more of your time; I want to spend the rest of my time and life with you forever.
“Oh, it’s raining Yuri, let’s go home.”
You took off your jacket and placed it around my shoulder, covering my head with your two hands. At that time, you were so closed to me that I felt something hot on my inside that made me blush. I held your hand and pulled you on a nearby waiting shed, there, I told you to wait for the rain to fade as I was so confident that it would end soon.
But the rain was so stubborn and didn’t stop pouring. I saw you shivering in cold. I knew you didn’t want your shaking to be obvious but I did notice it, so I gave you back your jacket but you’re ceasing me to do so. Instead, you put it back on my shoulders again. Then I pouted.
“Rain, rain, go away~” I chanted as you pulled me closer to you. I don’t know what’s with you that you were so sweet towards me. Were you drugs at that time? I clutched to the hem of your shirt before I hugged you completely. I knew you need some warmness at that time.
Few minutes passed and the rain kept on pouring. Our stomach both growled in hunger.
“I’m hungry~” I said as I made another pout. It didn’t mean anything; I just want to look cute in front of you. But I didn’t expect that you would lose hold of me after that.
“If we only left this place as I told you earlier, then we wouldn’t be stuck in this stinky shed.”
You’re tone was so stern that it appeared to me that you’re blaming me. You became sour towards me suddenly and I hate it.
“Huh?” I raised a brow as I looked up at you. “Are you blaming me?!”
“Who else is in here? Maybe I should blame the cat behind us.”
“Then I’m going! It’s just a rain; it cannot kill us by its raindrops!”
Then I started running as I heard you shouted ‘oi!’, you followed me instantly, chasing after me. You kept calling my name on the street and telling me to stop and that you couldn’t run any faster as I could, but I didn’t listen to you. Then, I heard a noisy honk and the screechy sound of a swerving wheel.
I looked back. My eyes widened when I see you on the ground, with your blood streaming.
Even though you're gone I can hear your heart
It's calling out my name like a flash in the dark
If this is just a dream
I won't give it back
I'll find a way to make it last
One more minute wait wait wait don't go
Just one more minute wait wait wait don't go
We dashed you to hospital. I never let go of your hand when we were in the ambulance. Tears kept flowing in my eyes as I felt guilty for what I’ve done. I should be the one lying there, I should be the one who’s suffering the pain. I should have stay calm and understand you at that time. I’m such a stupid brat.
Both of my hands were trembling while I hold yours. You laughed so weak with that.
“Why are you laughing??” I asked.
You didn’t answer but you tried to reach my face with your weak hand and wiped the tears on my cheeks. But even how many times you wipe them they would not stop on falling until I'm certain that you are okay.
“Y-Yuri …” You uttered. “D-do you … how p-pretty … y-you are …”
I bit my lip as I didn’t know what to response. I do not know if you are just making fun of me, but if you were, that was not the right time to joke, you know.
“Y-you’re … beautiful …”
You caressed my cheeks and smiled weakly again. So I nodded, “I know”, I answered. “Why are you saying this to me?”
I was still full of tears. I like what you were saying to me but it also fears me that something bad might happen next so you’re telling me things you never told me before.
You squished my hand tighter and kissed it softly, “because … b-because … I … I …
… I love you, Yuri…”
It shocked me. It surprised me to hear those words from you, because I love you too.
I love you too Ryosuke from the bottom of my heart.
But,
You are so unfair! You didn’t let me tell you my feelings! You didn’t let me to answer to your confession.
Your hold onto me had loosened and you slowly closed your eyes.
Wait! Don’t go, I still need to say how much I love you too…
I am keeping every word you say
But how much longer can I hold on
Cause whispers echoing until they fade
Remind me that you're already gone
“ I love you, Yuri”
Those words; it makes me happy to know that you feel the same way towards me. But, what’s the use of it now, now that you are gone. Say it to me again Ryosuke, please I want to hear it from you every day. Please come back. I need you.
'Cause every time I try to chase your voice
I end up getting lost and running in circles
And it's never enough I'm waiting
Whenever I close my eyes, your figure appears and at the same time I could hear those sweet words that you said. Where are you now? Are you sitting next to me? Are you hugging me when I’m down? I don’t care if I’ll see you as a ghost, I really don’t care. What I really want is to see you again. I want to apologize as many times as I could, I won’t stop saying sorry until we could go back at that time and re-do everything. I miss you so much Ryosuke, I miss you.
Even though you're gone I can hear your heart
It's calling out my name like a flash in the dark
If this is just a dream
I won't give it back
I'll find a way to make it last
One more minute wait wait wait don't go
Just one more minute wait wait wait don't go
Wait wait wait don't go
Just one more minute wait wait wait don't go
Oooh yeah don't go
If you heard that I love you too, would you not leave me at that time? I hate you for being impatience at that time! You didn’t give me a chance, even just a minute or even 3 seconds to tell you how I feel, how I feel for you for this long. I still don’t get your point of leaving me, because If you really love me, you would not give up on that so easily right?
Did you fear that I might reject you so you instantly closed your eyes? If so, I better not hear those words from you! I could wait for a lifetime, but now that you’re gone, what would I gonna do?
I’m sorry.
FAIL. FAIL. FAIL. FAIL