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Title: Puddle of Tears: Find me in the Rain
Author: [livejournal.com profile] nodoka06
Pairing: Yamada/Chinen
Genre: drama
Summary: Love is like a rain, it can preserve from above, drenching couples with a soaking bliss. But sometimes under the enraged heat of life, love dries on the surface and must nourish from below, tending to its roots keeping itself alive





Doubt. Incese. Insecurities. Misgiving. Confusion.

They are both aware of those. The relationship they currently have is not healthy anymore. Both of them are being so skeptical.

"Yuri please, listen..."

The shorter boy has become stubborn again, sealing his sense of hearing with his small palms, not wanting to hear the explanations his lover would say. Because he knows, those elucidations are just the same. He's angry for the same old reasons, and even how many times he've tried not to feel insecure, he can't. He just cannot.

"How many times do we need to fight over this? There's nothing between me and Yuto-kun..."

Chinen closed his damped eyes. Just by hearing the name pained him even more. He is asking his self, why? Why can't he believe those words?

"I love you, Yuri. You're the only one that I love."

Yamada crept on his side, slowly stretched his arm to have a contact on his lover's silky hair, with the desire of comforting the latter by stroking his hair. But Chinen is immovable, he didn't let him.

"don't touch me! Leave me alone!!"

It kills him to hear his cries. It kills him to see him hurt, hurt because of the things that aren't true. And it repeatedly kills him to know that Chinen already lost his trust for him, now that he believes it is the most important thing they should have in their relationship.

But he is a fighter.

He will not let their relationship to end like that. He'll fight for it. He'll fight for the person whom he love with all of his heart, for the person he depends his life upon, for the person he wants to be with forever. Even if he'll be the only one who's willing to fight for the love they once shared, he'll never give up. Chinen Yuri is worth fighting for.

"Believe me. Only believe on me, not on them. They know nothing. They don't know how much I love you. You're everything to me."

Fearlessly, he put his hands above the shaking hands of the crying creature, inching his self to move closer. And when Chinen let him hold his hands, he put it down from his ears and gave him a warm embrace, full with love and concern, touching his chubby cheek on the smaller guy's cheek which was drenched by his tears. And now that Chinen could hear him clearly he said, "I love you..."

"I'm tired of this already..."

That served to be Chinen's respond. Yamada was taken aback; he never did expect that he'd hear that statement from the most important person for him. He never thought that Chinen Yuri would get tired of their nonsense fights, would get tired of HIM. Because, that would be so unfair! He always tried to understand Chinen when he did something wrong, he always forgive him for whatever trouble or mistakes he did. But now, just because of some stupid rumors and stupid fanservices, He and Chinen are suffering. Chinen is indeed a genius, but when it comes to love, he becomes a fool.

"No!"

He protested, his embrace getting tighter. He wanted to make sure that Chinen will not leave him, he will never let him go away, he will never lose hold of him.

Chinen took a heavy breath and didn't even try to struggle. He's aware that Yamada is much stronger than him; he knows that he can't escape from his hold.

"Then let's play a game. Let's play hide and seek. If you catched me, i'll stay on your side, but if you don't... we're over."

He couldn't understand Chinen's plan. Why do they need to do that? It's like they're gambling for their love. What if he wouldn't find Chinen? He is scared. He is scared that he might not see Chinen ever again, or if ever he would, he fears that he doesn't own him anymore. But he need to be strong and positive. He'll never stop on searching until he find him, and when that happens, he'll make sure that he'll never feel the pain ever again.

A forced nod came and he stood up as Chinen started the game. He leaned to the cold wall facing it, his hand folded upward resting his head on it, covering his eyes full of trepidation. He started counting.

"...8...9...10"

He moved his sight around, in every corner, in every place, but his playmate, Chinen, is nowhere to find.

Silly. That was really a silly game.

He charged on each rooms looking for his squirrel putting on mind that Chinen really did hide only at their shared home. He kept on searching for the little boy even in the most impossible place the latter could hide. He was desperate.

"Yuri ... Where are the hell are you?"

After he roamed the whole place and understood that his playmate wasn't there at all, he hurriedly ran off the house, ran as fast as he could. He doesn't want to lose him, never.

"Yuri!"

He kept on shouting for his name. He went to the beach where they had their first innocent kiss but no luck still. Almost an hour passed, there's still no sign of Chinen, even his shadow is so hard to find.

He was still searching. No plan of giving up. But the sky that used to be so blue went from dark gay and it made him worried. He didn't bring umbrella presuming that it'd not rain, nor Chinen did have. He couldn't contact him through their phones as the latter seemed to turned his phone off. Then, the sky completely turned into almost black and a loud thunder snap accompanied the first few raindrops that fell. The leaves rustled when the air blew mad. Heavy, warm, big drop, it drenched him in a seconds, like an overturned bucket from the sky dumping just on his head. He reached his hands up and out, as if that could stop him on getting wetter. The rain kept on falling and little puddles of water shone under the street lamp. He then remembered a place that he hasn't searched so far.

The playground.

He didn't waste any time to get there. He needs to protect Chinen from the rain, from the loud noisy thunders where the chibi is afraid of.

"i'll be there Yuri, just stay there."

He was praying silently on his head, until he reached the playground. Nobody was there. Who would dare? It was raining. He wanted Chinen to come out on his hiding place, but if he did, the game would be over and he'd be the loser. He needs to find him by his own.

Here and there he ran, not minding the bullet drops coming from the madden sky. A loud thunder was heard again, and when the scary flash appeared on the sky, Yamada felt like someone was calling for his name, calling for his attention to take care of him under the raging rain.

After the marathon of running, he finally stopped when he saw a familiar pink scarf laying on the wet ground. Then he ran again to the nearest place from the scarf. And there he was...

...inside the big penguin slide.

Sitting on a damp and cold ground, hugging his knees, face was hidden and his cries were still audible despite of the noise the rain was making.

Finally, he found him.

He crouched on his side, closing the gap between them, hugging him so tight, and reassuring him that everything is alright.

"I'm now here Yuri, don't be afraid..."

A soft whisper on his small ear but it didn't seem he was heard. Not because he didn't want to listen but he was occupied by his fear, his fear of thunderstorms. Yamada never halt on stroking the chibi's smooth hair, soothing him, protecting him on his warm embrace. Though he was already drenched by the rain, Chinen didn't mind, as long as he is not alone, as long as he is with him, with the person he always need and truly love.

"R-Ryo..suke"

His voice was shaking, same with his body. He was wet as well but Yamada couldn't offer anything to dry him. The angry thunder rumbled that scared Chinen who flinched, and another one came and he jolted, slightly pounced to his prince, hugging him back, almost burying his self on his boyfriend's chest. Eyes closed with his tears were still visible. Tears that were caused by pain, sorrow, and fear.

"Daijoubu yo Yuri, you'll now safe now that I'm here."

Yamada pulled the chibi closer as Chinen snuggled to him. He nuzzled to his ears and softly sang their song.


"Until now, I can't love anyone else except from you
I want to recapture you, very painful ...

Thus, and so like, like, shouting so many times
"Like" inside my heart
Stay in the corner of the street alone, the rain made me wet
The rhythm of the umbrella, just like we heard on that day
is the sound of the rain i do not want to forget...

...the sound of rain."

Chinen calmed down as he heard the sweet voice of his prince and it slightly gave him a tickling sensation. It could be called as a miracle. The rain calmed down at the same time, like the weather depends on Chinen's mood. It stopped completely, the almost black sky slowly changed into an orange dimmed sky, the thunder was gone, birds were chirping outside like they're singing a happy song for the two lovers.

"Arigatou Ryosuke, arigatou..."

That was enough for Yamada. Simple thanks is enough for him, enough to feel that Chinen is safe, and that's because of him.

"Don't do this again Yuri. You've scared me; I thought I'd never see you again."

He brushed his hair that was blocking his beautiful face, caressed those pale yet soft cheeks, both eyes locked upon each others.

A beautifut smile curved on Chinen's lips.

"But you found me right? I know you would."

Seeing those vivid smiles, those angelic eyes, he wanted to melt. He can't be mad at this pretty creature in front of him.

"I'll always be here when you need me, even if you don't need me, i'll always be on your side. Neither rain nor anything could ever stop me on taking care of you, because Yuri... I love you..."

Those small arms that were resting on Yamada's chest crawled up, hugging its neck with those lustrous look he's throwing at him. Yamada smiled sweetly as he welcomed the chibi's pouty and tender lips on his, leaning more close, locking their lips together.

And after some minutes of kissing, they pulled out, both panting as Yamada deepened their kiss.

"Found you."

He beamed and then tapped Chinen on his shoulder reminding him that their silly game was over and he won. And as his prize, he will have Chinen Yuri for lifetime.



   --おわり--   

A/N: another dramatic story from me. I know I said on my last fic that I'll be writing fluff starting from that day onwards :D
but the rainy reason has started in my country and whenever it rains, it always give me a sad story. Rain means sadness for me ... well, sometimes may be not xD

I have another story on mind regarding Chinen's upcoming drama, but i don't know the plot(of the manga) yet so i can't start working on it. It's not like 'exceed the storm' (which honestly, i lost my motivation to continue it and i'm out of ideas <:<) xp
and i might get busy ... Really really busy ... Since i have already graduated in college, i need to work! I need to earn my own money, finally!!
But it feels that i'm really old now =( omg
i hope i will still have a time for fandom when i have a stable job. *crosses fingers*

welcome back to school to those who'll have their first classes tomorrow~!!

Anyways comments are very well appreciated. I think it's better to have a talk with some of the silent readers out here hohoho... Don't be shy or rather be scared, i love vampires or maybe i have fangs but i don't bite yet.


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Date: 2012-06-03 12:04 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ai-no-messeji.livejournal.com



...keep on searching, even if it ends you your life, because if you truly love a person with all your might, even your own being. It will not matter. Because only that person's safety, only that person's happiness. That is all. That is everything. Everything that you could ever wish for, ne?

Oh, Nodoka-chan really has a very nice writing style. I really like it. >w< Demo, what caught me into this fic is the pure meaning of it. :) This is really pretty. Yokatta na... I know Yama-chan will find Chii. I know he will.

Thank you for writing this. This has made my YamaChii heart happy.
I miss you, Nodokapyon.

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Date: 2012-06-03 12:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] nodoka06.livejournal.com
So true. =))

Eh? Don't say such things, don't flatter me >:p Pure meaning as like the purity of love YamaChii has, ne? we all know yamada couldn't live without his chinen yuri on his side, so he'll search for him in any trees (since chii is a squirrel xD) he might hide.

I miss you too~ If only my connection could get any better, I'll be as active as before. I couldn't even dl their album tracks, magazine scans and videos because of this turtle-ish internet speed.

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Date: 2012-06-03 12:05 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] nodoka06.livejournal.com
Ai-chan is so fast ;DD

Take your time~ =))
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Date: 2012-06-03 12:14 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ai-no-messeji.livejournal.com
>8D of course, am stalking you. :P

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Date: 2012-06-03 12:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] chibicorvus.livejournal.com
T________T aaahhh so heartwarming and touching <3

Wait for me, kay. I need to go somewhere before putting more proper comment. *waves*

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Date: 2012-06-03 12:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] nodoka06.livejournal.com
I will wait for you ne, Yuuchan.

Take care n going somewhere. =)

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Date: 2012-06-03 02:07 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] chibicorvus.livejournal.com
IMABACK <3

mou, chii-chan should believe more in his boyfriend ne. From Nodoka-chan's writing, I can feel Chii's insecurities and Yama-chan's fight. I can depict the story in my head clearly like I'm watching a movie >w< Anychii, I haven't see you around, Nodoka-chan *pouts* You must have been very busy ne... Whaah Nodoka-chan have just graduated from university! Omedetou! For the work, ganbatte ne >w

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Date: 2012-06-04 12:20 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] nodoka06.livejournal.com
hai, Chinen should really believe at Yamada, nothing will happen if he keeps on closing his heart on him ne? Yamachan is the one who understand him the most so even sometimes he tells lie, yamachan can tell if it is true or not... so maybe in the story he knows that Chinen didn't really mean that he was already tired of their relationship ne? so with all of his might, he searched chinen with his Yuuki 100% *whacks*
*nods* Un, yuuchan, I'm kinda busy now ... because i decided to be a celebrity orz jk . But i heard you'll be studying in states, omedetouuuuu~

thanks for reading and for the lovely comment. =))

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Date: 2012-06-04 02:11 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] chibicorvus.livejournal.com
Ah no, it wasn't states, but UK. United Kingdom yo. But the tuition is too high :'( Actually I want to study in Japan, but dad doesn't allow me to. He gives me options: US, UK, or Aussie. So I choose UK. I may have to work for a year to earn some money before continuing study ._.

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Date: 2012-06-03 01:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] usagi-goes-pyon.livejournal.com
T_T
That was so cute and touching! /sobs

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Date: 2012-06-04 12:21 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] nodoka06.livejournal.com
aww thanks for reading! =)

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Date: 2012-06-03 07:17 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hwangtinglee.livejournal.com
Awwwwwwwww
Baka Chii how can you ever doubt your Ryosuke
He is always and forever your one and only
Never forget that ne
And of course our prince will find you
He always will cuz you are his Yuri XDDD
So sweet ne although dramatic ><
Happy ending for YamaChii SAIKOU!!!

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Date: 2012-06-04 12:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] nodoka06.livejournal.com
because our princess feels too much insecurities
when he doesn't really need to be insecure
just like in ur fic ne, he is insecure with the pingu *shots*
he just loves his buta so much
hai hai yamachan has his left dtective eye ne so wherever chinen will go he'll definitely find him
even if he hides behind ohno kun heheh
ofcourse ne, yamachii deserves happy ending
thanks for reading and commenting rei-chan =*

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Date: 2012-06-04 12:51 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hwangtinglee.livejournal.com
Maaaa were is our proud princess
Chii has nothing to worry about ne
Isn't Chii our genki confident hime XDDD
Erghhhh fine wakatta yo *pout*
Oh there's an update on that ^^
So you can read it when you have time ne Jass-chan hehehe

Sou sou
Ryosuke has his Chii senses
So never have to worry
He knows when chibi is hurt and will always find him hehehe
Mochiron
I love your fics ne
*squish you*

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Date: 2012-06-04 02:14 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] nodoka06.livejournal.com
wakannai yo
maybe our chii is so stressed out on their taping
and has been carried away from some scenes xD
i'm sure he'll be the one who will do lots of explaning
when his new drama starts like what yamada did when rnm was still airing xD
It;s time for chi to have his revenge
ahh yea i saw the update ,, i'll read it later ne
uhmm i hope there will be no more interruptions in the story heheh

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Date: 2012-06-04 02:43 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hwangtinglee.livejournal.com
Ahhhh sou ne
It's hard to demo I'm sure Chii knows now
That his Ryosuke is his one and only
And he is Ryosuke's one and only too XDD

Sou yo
Chii is playing his revenge now
It's a mean one too ><
Who knows maybe Ryosuke's will interrupte that scene hehehe
And drags his Chii away hahaha

Erghhhhh no comment
You shall find out XDD

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Date: 2012-06-03 07:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greenxspice.livejournal.com

Done. But I'll be back for a proper comment. (=^__^=)V

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Date: 2012-06-04 12:23 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] nodoka06.livejournal.com
okieee ei-chen, you are ei-chen right?
/adds

take your timeeeeeee =)

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Date: 2012-06-12 09:25 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] greenxspice.livejournal.com
Tadaimaaaa!!!! Hai. Ei Chen desu. (^____^)V

Damn! I was looking for this post for almost a week now. And I just found it!!~ I wasn't able to go online the next day, and when I did the other day.. I can't find this post anymore. I kinda forgot the title too. So I'll checked it in your index but then again it wasn't posted there yet. I just knew it because I already read some of those fics. It's seems like everytime I'm online here in LJ, I keep on searching for this fic. Oh, well never mind. I'm already here. Nyaaa~..


>>I just can't blame Chinen if he's having those doubts. I think it's just normal for him to feel that way, especially that they're having an odd situation. But then again, all of his doubts just disappeared after hearing all of those comforting words from Yama-chan after Yama_chan found him. -- And a round of applause for Yama-chan [ *clapping* ] for his sincerity and for not giving up on his precious Yuri. That was indeed a heroic act and he's so sweet. Yuri is so lucky to have him ne?.. -- A happy ending that they always deserve is LOVE.

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Date: 2012-06-03 08:41 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] miaka-yamachii.livejournal.com
spot for Rumi chan ~~~

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Date: 2012-06-03 10:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hikarichan92.livejournal.com
Yuri is Such a Baka!
How could he proves Yamada's love that is definitely only for him, just through such a stupid game?
Err .. But even then, I could understand what he feels. YJ moment is truly outrageous.

Now .. he must have believed all along. Yamada's pure love is for him only. They are destined to be together, so .. anywhere and everywhere he wanted to hid, Yamada will always be able to find him. Nothing could separate them,not for that seahorse moments and not even for Chii's new drama. hoho~

Great story as always ^^
Thanks for this, Nodoka-chan ^^

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Date: 2012-06-04 12:42 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] nodoka06.livejournal.com
Chinen is confused ne,
he doesn't know what to do anymore because of the pain he is feeling
that pain must go away ne ... itai no itai no tondoke~! XDD
Hai it pains even more,

Chinen might have forget that, he might have forgotten that there is a special thread that connects them togother and yamada will follow that thread until he will reach the end that is connected on chinen's heart =)

Thanks for reading anf commenting astichan ^^

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Date: 2012-06-04 05:36 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hikarichan92.livejournal.com
Aww sweet x3

Sou desu ne.
There is always a strong bond that will reunite them again when they feel tired and almost gave up with their own relationship. A bond that will always remind them to stick together.
YamaChii is love ♥

you're welcome~

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Date: 2012-06-06 09:42 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jobelle-nishii.livejournal.com
wow naman kaa-chan~♥ ang cute cute neto~!!!

na speechless ako bigla xD

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Date: 2012-06-14 09:19 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] nodoka06.livejournal.com
Dito ka ba talaga naspeechless o baka kiniss ka lang ni Birthday Boy kaya ka Speechless?

Waa ngayon ko lang nakita comment mo. /fail

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Date: 2012-06-15 04:42 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jobelle-nishii.livejournal.com
LOOOOOOL~!!! WALA BANG LIKE BUTTON DITO SA LJ??!! WAHAHAHA


wala kaming ginawa kaa-chan ah!

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Date: 2012-06-19 10:24 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] nodoka06.livejournal.com
Wala nga eh, andami ko pa din sanang gustong i-like XDD

Ano lang ginawa nyo? nagTITIgan? XDD

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Date: 2012-06-10 07:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] deguchihsj.livejournal.com
Chii was suffering ne, demo Yama-chan will back to found you no matter what,
YamaChii love always together~
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