Is it wrong to call you mine?
May. 9th, 2012 10:46 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
yamachine801Title: Is it wrong to call you mine?
Author:![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
nodoka06
Pairing: 山田・知念 , 山田・有岡
Genre: Romance, Betrayal, Angst
Summary: Being a third party doesn't mean that you are destroying a relationship. It only means that you make two souls realize that they are not meant to be.
A/N: This serves to be my birthday fanfic for Yama-chan. I want to slap myself for having this kind of plot in mind for this special day of him. And please, don’t glare at my summary; you don’t need to take it so seriously. （＾－＾）ｖ
“At what time will we meet?” I was washing the strawberries I bought in the market early this morning holding the bowl with my left hand whilst I was wearing a headset which was connected to my phone talking to him at the other line. I need to prepare something since he told me he will give me a visit today because we haven’t seen each other for 3 days. He’s been busy with his work as a cook while I am busy with my studies as a university student.
“My shift will end at 4pm so expect me to be there around 4:30 or so.”He answered while I heard some fast chopping sound at the background. I supposed that he must be hiding somewhere where in his superior couldn’t see him having a phone call during work hours, he could be that stupid sometimes, well, that’s because he loves me.
He loves me so much; and I believe he really does.
I am feeling that way and I don’t want to doubt him. Since, he would not stay with me, if he doesn’t really love me right?
“Sou ka. Don’t be late Ryosuke. I have a surprise for you.” I turned off the faucet when I was sure that the fruits were clean enough and put some pieces inside the blender to make a strawberry shake while the remaining will be the toppings for the cake I baked. It was actually my first ‘edible’ cake and I want to thank him for teaching me again and again just for me to learn.
“Un. I’ll be there before you know. Don’t miss me too much, Yuri.” he chuckled at the other line. I smiled as I pictured on my mind his cute giggling figure while wearing his white uniform. “Because it’s enough that I’m missing you this much.”
I blushed.
But I’m grateful that he didn’t see me blushing at that time. Because if he did, he would do some more teasing for me to blush harder and in the end, it’s like I would forget how to speak normally. But he is smart to know that I was blushing like crazy even he’s a few miles away from me.
“Hey Yuri, are you still there? You must be blushing since you didn’t respond.” he chuckled.
“No I’m not!” I defended though I know he wouldn’t believe it. He knows me very well.
“Really? Then could you take a picture of you now and send it to me right away. I need proof!”
I know he won’t stop on teasing me until he gets what he wanted. But since he’s not beside me, I have the courage not to follow him. “Mou~ you’re still at work darou? You better go back cooking before your boss catches you talking to the prettiest person alive.” I pressed the end call hurriedly before he could say non-sense things again.
Time passed like a blink of an eye and at exactly 4:30 I was so surprised when Ryosuke hugged me behind while I was not aware of his presence. He always does that, sneaking inside my house like a burglar and would steal a kiss from me when he knew he has succeeded on being a ninja. “Tadaima, Yuri.” he sweetly whispered on my sense of hearing as it gave me a wonderful feeling. A feeling that I couldn’t explain properly. A feeling that I can only feel when he is near me.
I jolted a bit since I was surprised, and he laughed seeing me with that reaction. “You’ve scared me! I thought you were a ghost.” I pouted.
He then pecked my lips that were pouting cutely in front him and then leaned closer to me. “That’s not the proper response, Yuri.”
I pouted harder, “You can’t blame me. You startled me,” I said, pinching his plump cheeks that I love so much. “Okaeri.” I pecked his lips back as he pulled me closer, making our kiss to go deeper. I guess he just couldn’t restrain his self on doing so. I could feel how much he’s missed me. I only let him to do what he wanted, since I was longing for his sweet kisses too. We just parted our lips when we both felt that we were lacking for air. He stroked my hair after and hugged me for the nth time before I remembered that I prepared something for him. I held his hand and went to the kitchen, got the cake out from the oven and offered him the strawberry shake.
I could see his eyes sparkling in joy as his favorite fruit appeared in front of him.
And for some stupid reason, I was jealous at the red fruit he was eating. I should not be, I know. Since, the strawberry only has the sweetest sweet taste that Ryosuke loves while I have the sweetest sweet love that Ryosuke loves too and more importantly I have his heart.
The only sad part is,
I may not be the only owner of his heart.
I may only own the half of it.
Or worse, smaller than the half.
Since, I am not the original one. I was not the first one who came up on his life.
I was just the other guy that he loves.
I only own the second spot.
Though he told me before that he is feeling that he loves me more than him, than the person he loved before me, Daiki.
I don’t know whether I should believe him or not. I just don’t care. What important is, I love him, and he loves me too. I don’t want to compete over Daiki; I’m contented to know that Ryosuke feels the same way towards me.
He loves me.
Those three words are enough for me.
Enough for me to fight my love for him. To fight our love for each other. But are these things really enough for me to call him mine? It is hard to think of it as I know that the whole part of him is not mine. It hurts me.
He may not see that I’m jealous whenever he’s with Daiki and I was alone. I should not be jealous though but how could I ease the pain I’m feeling inside? I can’t put all the blame to Ryosuke for giving me this suffering, for loving me even though he already has a boyfriend and for making me feel I am important to him. It is my fault too for riding into his flaws and fell in love at him at the deepest point that I could imagine.
He may not feel that I’m hurt in view of the fact that I’m making him to believe I’m fine for what I am for him, being a third party in their relationship. I once told him to have a break up with Daiki when I had the courage to, and when he told me that he realized I’ve become more important to him than Daiki, but he couldn’t do that as he is afraid that Daiki might end his life when he leaves him. And by those circumstances I can tell that he is only keeping his relationship with Daiki because of pity. I should be happy because of that, shouldn’t I?
He may not hear my cries when I hear people talking shits about me, about us; because even if I stop the Earth on spinning on its axis I couldn’t change the fact that I just stole him from someone. I didn’t intend to and never did, but it just happened. And every time the people around me make me feel that Ryosuke is not mine, I die.
“Yuri …” he said after he munched the first strawberry he picked up from the top of the cake, snapping me back to reality. “I will gonna break up with him.” he stared at me seriously while I didn’t know what to reply. I didn’t even know if I should smile. I must be happy, that finally he decided to end his relationship with him. And maybe after that, after he’ll have his freedom, he can be mine. I can call him mine, while I will be his only one. How I wish.
I blinked like asking him if I’m hearing those statements correctly. He nodded and weakly smiled, drank some water and softly caressed my cheek. “You are the only one that I love now, and that’ll not change, never.”
A teardrop fell at my left eye. I was so happy, happy to hear those lines. Being his only one, oh it feels so heaven. “Ryosuke …” I hugged him as he hugged me back, whispering the three words I always want to hear from his mouth. “ I love you.”
“I love you too, Ryosuke.” he pulled back from the hugged, cupped my cheeks up so that my eyes would meet his beautiful brown orbs. He caressed my cheeks again like it is the most precious thing he has touched, pulled me closer as he wrapped his right arm on my small waist while the other hand still on my drenched cheek. He kissed my forehead, then my left cheek and then my right cheek, kiss my chin and my nose before he gave me another sweet and passionate kiss, which tasted like the strawberries I bought for him.
I was walking alone in park the next day to breathe for some fresh air when I saw a familiar figure seating on a bench in front of a big sakura tree. I was behind the tree and quite far from him so I could only saw his back and the half of the bench he’s sitting at from my place. I smiled as I saw him there, like we were really destined to see each other at the same place, the same time.
“Ryo---”
I blissfully strode near him but I stopped when I had a full view behind the big Sakura tree.
He was not alone.
He was with Daiki.
He was sitting beside him with his ‘legal’ boyfriend’s hand holding his.
Then I heard them talking. I didn’t plan to eavesdrop but I was just so stupid not to think that he might be with him in this kind of place, in this simple yet romantic area where the Sakura Tree could witness all the love of each couple share.
“Do you really love Chinen?” Daiki asked. He was looking straight at Ryosuke’s eyes while Ryosuke was looking back sincerely at him. I crossed my fingers while I was waiting for his answer not pulling my sight out of them though it hurts me to see that they were together.
A wide smile formed in my lips when I saw Ryosuke nodded and answered Daiki’s question. “Yes. I do love Yuri. I really love him.”
At that very severe moment, I wanted to run at their place and jump at him to hug him but I should not. I know I need not to interfere with their conversation because it seemed that they were in the midst of discussing something important. So I just kept all of the happiness I was feeling inside me and silently celebrating for the victory I have achieved. I was really happy.
But the contentment I was feeling at those vivid times, quickly vanished as Daiki threw another question. “How about me, Ryosuke? Do you still love me.?”
Ryosuke stretched his other hand and placed it on Daiki’s cheek and smiled, “I love you, Daiki”
My tears automatically flew down upon hearing his answer. I felt like I was stabbed non-stopped from my back while my heart was slowly shattering because of pain. And I think that I was over reacting, why did I ever think that I could have Ryosuke wholly? Why did I ever believe that one day, I could be the only person he loves? Why did I trust him when he said yesterday that I’m the only one that he loves now?
Because if it’s true. He should have not said that he loves Daiki too.
I ran as fast as I could and entered to the nearest bar and let myself be drowned with alcohol. It was my first time to drink alcohol so I didn’t manage to organize myself when I got drunk. All I could remember was that I kept on drinking and drinking while I was expressing my grief to the bartender though I knew he was not listening, then I would dance like an idiot and would vomit every now and then.
I don’t know how I got into my bed. I couldn’t recall anything after I vomit a large amount of waste.
What surprised me most was, when I woke up Ryosuke was lying beside me holding my hands. Was he the one who sent me home? But how? How did he know that I was in that place now that he was busy with Daiki at that time? Ryosuke opened his eyes when he felt that I removed my hand on his hold. I stirred to the other side, not wanting to look at his face; not wanting to stare at his eyes because I might believe again to whatever lie he would tell me after.
“Y-Yuri, you are now awake.” he said placing his hand that I lost hold of and placed it into my arm and rubbed it gently. “What happened to you yesterday? Why did you drink? You never drink alcohol, and I was really shocked to see you that drunk.”
I didn’t say anything. I just didn’t want to talk to him.
“Tell me what happened, Yuri. I know there was something. What was it?” he asked again, not minding if I was not still answering his first question. I bit my lower lip, feeling that my tears are being obstinate again to fall down. I didn’t want him to see me crying for a foolish reason, since I know I don’t have the rights to get mad at him. Daiki came to his life first, he was loved by Ryosuke first, and was love by him whole-heartedly not until I came and took some part of his love that he used to own entirely. Daiki is the one who has the right to get mad at me, for splitting Ryosuke’s affection into two and causing a trouble into their relationship.
I covered my face with my pink bed sheet and it made Ryosuke to be worried. “Yuri, trust me and tell me everything.” He hugged me tight while I started sobbing like a baby in my pillow. “Yuri, stop crying. It hurts me to know that you are crying for a reason that I don’t know.”
“L-Liar! You know the reason why I’m crying!!” I blurted. I just need to blurt it out, I was hurting so badly.
“What? I don’t understand what you are saying.” he took off the bed sheet above my face and I decided to look at him. Although he is the one who’s giving me this kind of pain, I know that he is also the one who could only ease it, and just by looking at his face I could feel better, or so I thought.
“You told me that from now, I am the ONLY one that you love right?”
He nodded, wiping some of my tears with his trembling hands. “I did, and it’s true. You are the only one that-”
“Liar!!” I slapped his hand and he was dumbfounded. “I heard you say you love Daiki. You can’t say that I am the only one if you also love Daiki.” I couldn’t help but to cry as I remember the scene I witnessed and as his words kept on repeating on my mind. He blinked and he smirked after when he understand what I was talking about. “Why are you smirking?!” I shouted, a little pissed.
“Oh. so you were there.” He smiled at me sweetly and moved his beautiful face closer to mine. I blushed at that moment and then he laughed. I really hate him at that moment for playing with my feelings. I want to kill him so badly if I’m not only deeply and truly in love with him.
“There’s nothing funny Yamada! Stop playing with me!!” He suddenly enveloped me with a warm and sincere hug whilst I was punching him hardly on his chest though I was sure that he was not hurt by them. “You are so mean, Yamada.”
He hugged me tighter and tighter until I could feel his heart beat. “Yuri, you know that I don’t like you to call me with my surname. That sounds too formal now that we’re lover. Will you let me explain first?” He was still rubbing my back for me to cool down, and when he was sure that for somehow I have settled myself down, he loosened the hug and looked at me. “Now listen carefully. If you were stalking us yesterday-”
“Hey! I were not stalking you guys, it was just an accident.”
“Okay, then let me change it. If you happened to see us yesterday, it is not what you think. Do you still remember what I told you 2 days ago? That I’d gonna break up with him?” I nodded. “Then we did yesterday.”
I grasped on what he said, I don’t know why I was that shocked. “but why did you say that you love him?”
He smiled, stealing a fast kiss from my lips. “Because he was asking me if I still love him and I said ‘I love you, Daiki’, I didn’t say that “I STILL love you, Daiki”, do you get it now?” I shook my head. I did get what he was saying but I wanted to hear him explain so I tried my very best not to show my smile.
“What? I thought you’re a genius.” he grinned as I scowled at him, so then he continued, “I told him that I love him, but just as a friend, as for being someone special for me… but now, I know that things aren't gonna be the same between us ever again. I don’t want him to get hurt more knowing that I’m not being loyal to him. I know it’s hard for him to accept but that it’s the best thing we should do. I don’t also want to lose the respect we have for each other so in order to save things that we still have, like our friendship, I told him that it’s time for us to separate paths.”
“Did he agree?”
“At first he did not. But he realized that I was right, I would not look for another man if he had filled up everything that I needed and wanted, that’s what he said to me. He did cry. But in the end, he accepted the reality that the both of us are not made for each other.” He stared at me once more as he showed me his sweetest smile. “Because I’m 110% sure that you are the right one for me.”
He pecked my lips. “Will you not look after somebody again? Can you promise that you will not love any other man or woman after and aside from me?”
“Yes. I promise Yuri, you will be the only person that will have my heart. You may be the second person that I love but Yuri, I’m so certain that you’re the first and last one that I will love for REAL.”
“Ryosuke.” I hugged him tight on his neck, not that tight that could choke him, just enough tightness for him to feel how much I loved him and how happy I am to hear those things from him. “Does it mean, I can call you mine now?”
“Yes, Yuri. You can call me yours now while you are officially mine, 愛してるよ .” He said as he assured me by pulling me for a hug and kissing me endlessly like he doesn’t want me to let go.
A/N: OTANJOUBI OMEDETOU YAMA-CHAN~!!!!!!!!!!
I made this banner in a rush because I was having a hard feeling for Yamada these past few days LOL and the main reason is because he's not acting sweet towards Chinen lately and he's flirting with some other member INSTEAD </3
The text in the banner is not my thought, it is Chinen's message for Yamada XDD
BECAUSE YAMADA IS DENSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
Okayy My NewsFeed in FB is currentlt flooded by Yamada;s picture and I'm drowning.
Author:
nodoka06Pairing: 山田・知念 , 山田・有岡
Genre: Romance, Betrayal, Angst
Summary: Being a third party doesn't mean that you are destroying a relationship. It only means that you make two souls realize that they are not meant to be.
A/N: This serves to be my birthday fanfic for Yama-chan. I want to slap myself for having this kind of plot in mind for this special day of him. And please, don’t glare at my summary; you don’t need to take it so seriously. （＾－＾）ｖ
“At what time will we meet?” I was washing the strawberries I bought in the market early this morning holding the bowl with my left hand whilst I was wearing a headset which was connected to my phone talking to him at the other line. I need to prepare something since he told me he will give me a visit today because we haven’t seen each other for 3 days. He’s been busy with his work as a cook while I am busy with my studies as a university student.
“My shift will end at 4pm so expect me to be there around 4:30 or so.”He answered while I heard some fast chopping sound at the background. I supposed that he must be hiding somewhere where in his superior couldn’t see him having a phone call during work hours, he could be that stupid sometimes, well, that’s because he loves me.
He loves me so much; and I believe he really does.
I am feeling that way and I don’t want to doubt him. Since, he would not stay with me, if he doesn’t really love me right?
“Sou ka. Don’t be late Ryosuke. I have a surprise for you.” I turned off the faucet when I was sure that the fruits were clean enough and put some pieces inside the blender to make a strawberry shake while the remaining will be the toppings for the cake I baked. It was actually my first ‘edible’ cake and I want to thank him for teaching me again and again just for me to learn.
“Un. I’ll be there before you know. Don’t miss me too much, Yuri.” he chuckled at the other line. I smiled as I pictured on my mind his cute giggling figure while wearing his white uniform. “Because it’s enough that I’m missing you this much.”
I blushed.
But I’m grateful that he didn’t see me blushing at that time. Because if he did, he would do some more teasing for me to blush harder and in the end, it’s like I would forget how to speak normally. But he is smart to know that I was blushing like crazy even he’s a few miles away from me.
“Hey Yuri, are you still there? You must be blushing since you didn’t respond.” he chuckled.
“No I’m not!” I defended though I know he wouldn’t believe it. He knows me very well.
“Really? Then could you take a picture of you now and send it to me right away. I need proof!”
I know he won’t stop on teasing me until he gets what he wanted. But since he’s not beside me, I have the courage not to follow him. “Mou~ you’re still at work darou? You better go back cooking before your boss catches you talking to the prettiest person alive.” I pressed the end call hurriedly before he could say non-sense things again.
Time passed like a blink of an eye and at exactly 4:30 I was so surprised when Ryosuke hugged me behind while I was not aware of his presence. He always does that, sneaking inside my house like a burglar and would steal a kiss from me when he knew he has succeeded on being a ninja. “Tadaima, Yuri.” he sweetly whispered on my sense of hearing as it gave me a wonderful feeling. A feeling that I couldn’t explain properly. A feeling that I can only feel when he is near me.
I jolted a bit since I was surprised, and he laughed seeing me with that reaction. “You’ve scared me! I thought you were a ghost.” I pouted.
He then pecked my lips that were pouting cutely in front him and then leaned closer to me. “That’s not the proper response, Yuri.”
I pouted harder, “You can’t blame me. You startled me,” I said, pinching his plump cheeks that I love so much. “Okaeri.” I pecked his lips back as he pulled me closer, making our kiss to go deeper. I guess he just couldn’t restrain his self on doing so. I could feel how much he’s missed me. I only let him to do what he wanted, since I was longing for his sweet kisses too. We just parted our lips when we both felt that we were lacking for air. He stroked my hair after and hugged me for the nth time before I remembered that I prepared something for him. I held his hand and went to the kitchen, got the cake out from the oven and offered him the strawberry shake.
I could see his eyes sparkling in joy as his favorite fruit appeared in front of him.
And for some stupid reason, I was jealous at the red fruit he was eating. I should not be, I know. Since, the strawberry only has the sweetest sweet taste that Ryosuke loves while I have the sweetest sweet love that Ryosuke loves too and more importantly I have his heart.
The only sad part is,
I may not be the only owner of his heart.
I may only own the half of it.
Or worse, smaller than the half.
Since, I am not the original one. I was not the first one who came up on his life.
I was just the other guy that he loves.
I only own the second spot.
Though he told me before that he is feeling that he loves me more than him, than the person he loved before me, Daiki.
I don’t know whether I should believe him or not. I just don’t care. What important is, I love him, and he loves me too. I don’t want to compete over Daiki; I’m contented to know that Ryosuke feels the same way towards me.
He loves me.
Those three words are enough for me.
Enough for me to fight my love for him. To fight our love for each other. But are these things really enough for me to call him mine? It is hard to think of it as I know that the whole part of him is not mine. It hurts me.
He may not see that I’m jealous whenever he’s with Daiki and I was alone. I should not be jealous though but how could I ease the pain I’m feeling inside? I can’t put all the blame to Ryosuke for giving me this suffering, for loving me even though he already has a boyfriend and for making me feel I am important to him. It is my fault too for riding into his flaws and fell in love at him at the deepest point that I could imagine.
He may not feel that I’m hurt in view of the fact that I’m making him to believe I’m fine for what I am for him, being a third party in their relationship. I once told him to have a break up with Daiki when I had the courage to, and when he told me that he realized I’ve become more important to him than Daiki, but he couldn’t do that as he is afraid that Daiki might end his life when he leaves him. And by those circumstances I can tell that he is only keeping his relationship with Daiki because of pity. I should be happy because of that, shouldn’t I?
He may not hear my cries when I hear people talking shits about me, about us; because even if I stop the Earth on spinning on its axis I couldn’t change the fact that I just stole him from someone. I didn’t intend to and never did, but it just happened. And every time the people around me make me feel that Ryosuke is not mine, I die.
“Yuri …” he said after he munched the first strawberry he picked up from the top of the cake, snapping me back to reality. “I will gonna break up with him.” he stared at me seriously while I didn’t know what to reply. I didn’t even know if I should smile. I must be happy, that finally he decided to end his relationship with him. And maybe after that, after he’ll have his freedom, he can be mine. I can call him mine, while I will be his only one. How I wish.
I blinked like asking him if I’m hearing those statements correctly. He nodded and weakly smiled, drank some water and softly caressed my cheek. “You are the only one that I love now, and that’ll not change, never.”
A teardrop fell at my left eye. I was so happy, happy to hear those lines. Being his only one, oh it feels so heaven. “Ryosuke …” I hugged him as he hugged me back, whispering the three words I always want to hear from his mouth. “ I love you.”
“I love you too, Ryosuke.” he pulled back from the hugged, cupped my cheeks up so that my eyes would meet his beautiful brown orbs. He caressed my cheeks again like it is the most precious thing he has touched, pulled me closer as he wrapped his right arm on my small waist while the other hand still on my drenched cheek. He kissed my forehead, then my left cheek and then my right cheek, kiss my chin and my nose before he gave me another sweet and passionate kiss, which tasted like the strawberries I bought for him.
I was walking alone in park the next day to breathe for some fresh air when I saw a familiar figure seating on a bench in front of a big sakura tree. I was behind the tree and quite far from him so I could only saw his back and the half of the bench he’s sitting at from my place. I smiled as I saw him there, like we were really destined to see each other at the same place, the same time.
“Ryo---”
I blissfully strode near him but I stopped when I had a full view behind the big Sakura tree.
He was not alone.
He was with Daiki.
He was sitting beside him with his ‘legal’ boyfriend’s hand holding his.
Then I heard them talking. I didn’t plan to eavesdrop but I was just so stupid not to think that he might be with him in this kind of place, in this simple yet romantic area where the Sakura Tree could witness all the love of each couple share.
“Do you really love Chinen?” Daiki asked. He was looking straight at Ryosuke’s eyes while Ryosuke was looking back sincerely at him. I crossed my fingers while I was waiting for his answer not pulling my sight out of them though it hurts me to see that they were together.
A wide smile formed in my lips when I saw Ryosuke nodded and answered Daiki’s question. “Yes. I do love Yuri. I really love him.”
At that very severe moment, I wanted to run at their place and jump at him to hug him but I should not. I know I need not to interfere with their conversation because it seemed that they were in the midst of discussing something important. So I just kept all of the happiness I was feeling inside me and silently celebrating for the victory I have achieved. I was really happy.
But the contentment I was feeling at those vivid times, quickly vanished as Daiki threw another question. “How about me, Ryosuke? Do you still love me.?”
Ryosuke stretched his other hand and placed it on Daiki’s cheek and smiled, “I love you, Daiki”
My tears automatically flew down upon hearing his answer. I felt like I was stabbed non-stopped from my back while my heart was slowly shattering because of pain. And I think that I was over reacting, why did I ever think that I could have Ryosuke wholly? Why did I ever believe that one day, I could be the only person he loves? Why did I trust him when he said yesterday that I’m the only one that he loves now?
Because if it’s true. He should have not said that he loves Daiki too.
I ran as fast as I could and entered to the nearest bar and let myself be drowned with alcohol. It was my first time to drink alcohol so I didn’t manage to organize myself when I got drunk. All I could remember was that I kept on drinking and drinking while I was expressing my grief to the bartender though I knew he was not listening, then I would dance like an idiot and would vomit every now and then.
I don’t know how I got into my bed. I couldn’t recall anything after I vomit a large amount of waste.
What surprised me most was, when I woke up Ryosuke was lying beside me holding my hands. Was he the one who sent me home? But how? How did he know that I was in that place now that he was busy with Daiki at that time? Ryosuke opened his eyes when he felt that I removed my hand on his hold. I stirred to the other side, not wanting to look at his face; not wanting to stare at his eyes because I might believe again to whatever lie he would tell me after.
“Y-Yuri, you are now awake.” he said placing his hand that I lost hold of and placed it into my arm and rubbed it gently. “What happened to you yesterday? Why did you drink? You never drink alcohol, and I was really shocked to see you that drunk.”
I didn’t say anything. I just didn’t want to talk to him.
“Tell me what happened, Yuri. I know there was something. What was it?” he asked again, not minding if I was not still answering his first question. I bit my lower lip, feeling that my tears are being obstinate again to fall down. I didn’t want him to see me crying for a foolish reason, since I know I don’t have the rights to get mad at him. Daiki came to his life first, he was loved by Ryosuke first, and was love by him whole-heartedly not until I came and took some part of his love that he used to own entirely. Daiki is the one who has the right to get mad at me, for splitting Ryosuke’s affection into two and causing a trouble into their relationship.
I covered my face with my pink bed sheet and it made Ryosuke to be worried. “Yuri, trust me and tell me everything.” He hugged me tight while I started sobbing like a baby in my pillow. “Yuri, stop crying. It hurts me to know that you are crying for a reason that I don’t know.”
“L-Liar! You know the reason why I’m crying!!” I blurted. I just need to blurt it out, I was hurting so badly.
“What? I don’t understand what you are saying.” he took off the bed sheet above my face and I decided to look at him. Although he is the one who’s giving me this kind of pain, I know that he is also the one who could only ease it, and just by looking at his face I could feel better, or so I thought.
“You told me that from now, I am the ONLY one that you love right?”
He nodded, wiping some of my tears with his trembling hands. “I did, and it’s true. You are the only one that-”
“Liar!!” I slapped his hand and he was dumbfounded. “I heard you say you love Daiki. You can’t say that I am the only one if you also love Daiki.” I couldn’t help but to cry as I remember the scene I witnessed and as his words kept on repeating on my mind. He blinked and he smirked after when he understand what I was talking about. “Why are you smirking?!” I shouted, a little pissed.
“Oh. so you were there.” He smiled at me sweetly and moved his beautiful face closer to mine. I blushed at that moment and then he laughed. I really hate him at that moment for playing with my feelings. I want to kill him so badly if I’m not only deeply and truly in love with him.
“There’s nothing funny Yamada! Stop playing with me!!” He suddenly enveloped me with a warm and sincere hug whilst I was punching him hardly on his chest though I was sure that he was not hurt by them. “You are so mean, Yamada.”
He hugged me tighter and tighter until I could feel his heart beat. “Yuri, you know that I don’t like you to call me with my surname. That sounds too formal now that we’re lover. Will you let me explain first?” He was still rubbing my back for me to cool down, and when he was sure that for somehow I have settled myself down, he loosened the hug and looked at me. “Now listen carefully. If you were stalking us yesterday-”
“Hey! I were not stalking you guys, it was just an accident.”
“Okay, then let me change it. If you happened to see us yesterday, it is not what you think. Do you still remember what I told you 2 days ago? That I’d gonna break up with him?” I nodded. “Then we did yesterday.”
I grasped on what he said, I don’t know why I was that shocked. “but why did you say that you love him?”
He smiled, stealing a fast kiss from my lips. “Because he was asking me if I still love him and I said ‘I love you, Daiki’, I didn’t say that “I STILL love you, Daiki”, do you get it now?” I shook my head. I did get what he was saying but I wanted to hear him explain so I tried my very best not to show my smile.
“What? I thought you’re a genius.” he grinned as I scowled at him, so then he continued, “I told him that I love him, but just as a friend, as for being someone special for me… but now, I know that things aren't gonna be the same between us ever again. I don’t want him to get hurt more knowing that I’m not being loyal to him. I know it’s hard for him to accept but that it’s the best thing we should do. I don’t also want to lose the respect we have for each other so in order to save things that we still have, like our friendship, I told him that it’s time for us to separate paths.”
“Did he agree?”
“At first he did not. But he realized that I was right, I would not look for another man if he had filled up everything that I needed and wanted, that’s what he said to me. He did cry. But in the end, he accepted the reality that the both of us are not made for each other.” He stared at me once more as he showed me his sweetest smile. “Because I’m 110% sure that you are the right one for me.”
He pecked my lips. “Will you not look after somebody again? Can you promise that you will not love any other man or woman after and aside from me?”
“Yes. I promise Yuri, you will be the only person that will have my heart. You may be the second person that I love but Yuri, I’m so certain that you’re the first and last one that I will love for REAL.”
“Ryosuke.” I hugged him tight on his neck, not that tight that could choke him, just enough tightness for him to feel how much I loved him and how happy I am to hear those things from him. “Does it mean, I can call you mine now?”
“Yes, Yuri. You can call me yours now while you are officially mine, 愛してるよ .” He said as he assured me by pulling me for a hug and kissing me endlessly like he doesn’t want me to let go.
A/N: OTANJOUBI OMEDETOU YAMA-CHAN~!!!!!!!!!!
I made this banner in a rush because I was having a hard feeling for Yamada these past few days LOL and the main reason is because he's not acting sweet towards Chinen lately and he's flirting with some other member INSTEAD </3
The text in the banner is not my thought, it is Chinen's message for Yamada XDD
BECAUSE YAMADA IS DENSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
Okayy My NewsFeed in FB is currentlt flooded by Yamada;s picture and I'm drowning.
![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png){kind=small}
(no subject)
Date: 2012-05-09 02:58 am (UTC)yes. and ever since that Chinen looks so moody.
btw, really really great fic <3 ;;___;;
(no subject)
Date: 2012-05-09 05:59 am (UTC)I really wish for their comeback
I know YamaChii love is still there, it is just... maybe ... it's sleeping?
Aww Thanks.
(no subject)
Date: 2012-05-09 02:08 pm (UTC)Dunno, just my prediction~
(no subject)
Date: 2012-05-09 03:03 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2012-05-09 06:00 am (UTC)Take your time. =)
(no subject)
Date: 2012-05-09 06:31 am (UTC)ne I though its Yuto again,,,
its sad na, for being the thrid, but Chii can fight for his love and he Win it!
Yama-chan really love the little, hope their become a real lover forever~
(no subject)
Date: 2012-05-09 06:35 am (UTC)I just let the other to write YJ
I'm more into AriYamaChii *whacks*
But of course I only ship YamaChii among them <3
It is really sad but Chinen never lose hope that he could have Yamada someday though he got hurt once because of misunderstanding things.
We will celebrate for sure when these two become one someday ^^
Thanks for reading and commenting ^^
(no subject)
Date: 2012-05-09 03:34 am (UTC)(-__-")
But I am relieved after reading the whole story. Yamada choose Yuri rather than Daiki. Yokatta! ^^
And at the end, they finally realize that they're match to each other and can't be separated. YamaChii saikou!!
And for Daiki.. don't be so sad na.. There.. Takaki is waiting for you :)
What a nice story,nodoka-chan!
^_______^
Thanks for writing this :)
(no subject)
Date: 2012-05-09 06:05 am (UTC)and maybe he;s cuter XDLove can be cruel sometimes ne. When you thought that you already found someone to love but then one day you will realized that he's not actually the right one for you...
Like what Yamada said, he;s 110% sure that Chinen is the right one for him. ^^
Yea Right. Takaki is waiting for him!
He is just a bit busy on taping *whacks*
Arigatou Hikari-chan =DD
Thanks for the comment and for reading. =))
(no subject)
Date: 2012-05-09 07:25 am (UTC)8D
Ahh,I'm agree... actually I love your summary above .. fufu
Now,there's no one who could separate YamaChii,because there.. Takaki won't ever let Daiki go,for sure!
muahahahah
Hai
Douita,nodoka-chan!
This is the best YamaChii fic I read today!! ^________^
(no subject)
Date: 2012-05-09 03:55 am (UTC)Baka buta made Chii cry
Then again he also made Chii smiled happily >w<
YamaChii are meant to be ne
Forever and ever
Even if one buta is forced to be friendly with a bean sprout right now
I know once the cameras are off
Chii will always be the one Ryosuke goes straight to hehehe
Nice one Jass-chan
O'tanjoubi Omedetou Ryosuke XDDD
(no subject)
Date: 2012-05-09 06:13 am (UTC)Because that's how the true love works.
Even it is sad thought for Chinen at first, it made him to be atleast stronger.
He knows that it is wrong, but he didn't give up easily
It is just ... Yamada came at the wrong time.
He met the right person for him at the wrong time
But because they are destined ... they are the REAL ones that is destined
They have achieved a happy ending <3
Hai. We are sure that he will run to chii right away the moment the staff will announce a break
then he will start asking chinen if he's okay
and will tell him that everything he did on cam is only scripted
and that he is the only one that he loves hehe
(no subject)
Date: 2012-05-09 06:38 am (UTC)Through sickness and health
Through happiness and sadness
YamaChii will always be together
Cuz they are meant for one another and destined just like you said
No matter what happens on stage
At the end of the day it's always YamaChii XDD
They will forever have each others heart and love
(no subject)
Date: 2012-05-09 06:43 am (UTC)I will pronounce them as husband and wife
Yamada-sama you can know kiss Chinen-sama
*yamada kisses Chinen*
*nosebleeds & hyperventilates XDD*
At the end of the day it's always YamaChii XDD
You mean during nights?? OHOHOHO
(no subject)
Date: 2012-05-09 07:06 am (UTC)*throw confetties*
Greatest wedding ever XDD
Kyaaaaaaaaaaaa
YamaChii together forever
And now it's Yukito's time
Always YamaChii all the time ^^
All days and nights hehehe
(no subject)
Date: 2012-05-09 03:57 am (UTC)I luv the story line,.,
it's touching,.,
and I luv your quoted also,.,
"Being a third
party doesn't mean that
you are destroying a
relationship. It only means
that you make two souls
realize that they are not
meant to be."
===> may I used it sometimes???
BTW,., good job! (^_^)d
(no subject)
Date: 2012-05-09 06:15 am (UTC)Just don't apply it on your rl hehehe
Thanks for reading and commenting ^^
(no subject)
Date: 2012-05-10 11:53 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2012-05-09 05:01 am (UTC)Eventhough at first I have prepare myself with the soooo angst part which I almost can't bear it. But the ending erase it and totally make me touched and melting by this great scene *point the words above*
"Yes. I promise Yuri, you will be the only person that will have my heart. You may be the second person that I love but Yuri, I’m so certain that you’re the first and last one that I will love for REAL.”-->> Yuri is the first, Yuri is Ryosuke first and the last real love, its like a medicine for me to faster recovery of my health XDD
In fact I want to scream in happinness as well but I still have to recovery for my high fever , my body is still so weak , I even can't greet our Ryosuke happy b'day in his day :'( but well I can wish for them in my heart ne, and Ryosuke must be happy celebrating his precious day with his Yuri XDDDD
“Yes, Yuri. You can call me yours now while you are officially mine." OF COURSE YURI, RYOSUKE IS YOURS FROM THE BEGINNING AND FOR FOREVER AND EVER!!
Its such a wonderful story for Ryosuke B'day ! :D :D
(no subject)
Date: 2012-05-09 06:23 am (UTC)I do not want to miss this day to post some fic for our bias XD
I would be so mean to the birthday celebrant if I would end it being so angst right? And I know that we don't ant Chinen to be sad so this story needs to end with a happy ending <3
Hai. Because even Daiki became his first boyfriend before Chinen, it was not love after all, maybe admiration or something. XD But when he met Chinen he felt that it is the true love he's looking .
Aww Nana-chan is sicked? Get well soon. I guess it's caused by the weather ne? Drink lots of water! =)
Don't worry Nana-chan, I will greet Yamada-sama for you.
*greets the birthday boy*
He said he wants to say 'Thanks YOu to you and get well soon' =)))
HAI. Because RY stands for Ryosuke Yamada and Ryosuke Yuri while YC stands for Yuri Chinen and Yamada Chinen so they're really made to be together forever.
Thanks too for the wonderful comment. =)
(no subject)
Date: 2012-05-09 07:52 am (UTC)I feel like crying when you describe about Yuri's feeling.. so touching~
love is..... well, I dunno.. sometimes nice, sometimes cruel, sometimes crazy and all :P
and I love your quote :D somehow it sounds TRUE lol :D
(no subject)
Date: 2012-05-09 08:08 am (UTC)But because of his faith, despite of the heartaches and suffering he got, he wins over Daiki. ^^
Thanks for reading! =))))
(no subject)
Date: 2012-05-12 10:55 am (UTC)Being a third party doesn't mean that you are destroying a relationship. It only means that you make two souls realize if they are truly meant to be.
...I used if, because on the original summary. It was (in my own terms only and understanding) one-sided. It doesn't have a choice, because it is telling that everyone who will have a 'third party' will result to an ending. LOL. Don't mind this though. Haha...
And because, Yamachan did love Daichan here, very much I can say. Although, Chii came. He made his existence known. If Yamachan and Daichan were really meant to be, even if Chii exists in the story. They'll stay strong. Nothing can stop their love and that's because they are destined for each other. But in this fic, Chii appeared and made a difference, meaning Yamachan and Daichan isn't meant for each other.
(no subject)
Date: 2012-05-12 10:57 am (UTC)Thank for writing it.